Archive | December 2012

Thai/Dok Soke ดอกโศก/Do You Really Exist? มีจริงหรือเปล่า

I’ve been watching various Thai lakorns, trying to  catch and learn a few words and phrases. I came across Dok Soke ดอกโศก [Sad Flower] and really wanted to watch it but the only video with English subtitles wasn’t working properly. I ended up watching a Hmong dubbed version so I didn’t learn any Thai from watching Dok Soke. I love the theme song Mee Jing Reu Plao มีจริงหรือเปล่า [Do You Really Exist?] and the lyrics are very beautiful. The song is sung by an adorable little girl, Pinta.

I’ve heard…of old fairy tales
Usually, in there were many beautiful places

There was somebody to love…and alot of hope
I’ve been dreaming about being there someday

I need somebody to hold on to and make my heart feel warm
Someone who would wash away my loneliness

Do you really exist?
Will I ever meet…
somebody who loves, who cares,
who will always understand and fill up my life?

Do you really exist?
Someone I’ve been dreaming about…
I wish life could be like a fairy tale
Please let me meet that person just once
Can I?

At the horizon, the rainbow shines brightly
I just hope that love would be waiting not far away

In the lonely days, I keep asking my heart
I wonder who would come to fill up my heart

I need somebody to hold on to and make my heart feel warm
Someone who would wash away my loneliness

Do you really exist?
Will I ever meet…
somebody who loves, who cares,
who will always understand and fill up my life?

Do you really exist?
Someone I’ve been dreaming about…
I wish life could be like a fairy tale
Please let me meet that person just once
Can I……..?

Do you really exist?
Will I ever meet…
somebody who loves, who cares,
who will always understand and fill up my life?

Do you really exist?
Someone I’ve been dreaming about…
I wish life could be like a fairy tale
Please let me meet that person just once
Can I?

Please, can I?

The Alchemist

Just finished reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho and it was definitely worth the read! I share below my favorite passage from the book.

“Even though I complain sometimes,” it said, “it’s because I’m the heart of a person, and people’s hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly.”

Tiny Rhino

At my monthly InterCorps Council meeting on Tuesday, our ice breaker game was a “Would you rather…” question game. Everyone draws a slip of paper that has a question in the form of “Would you rather…” and based on personal preference, choose between one of the two options on the slip.

My question was, “Would you rather be a giant hamster or a tiny rhino?”. My response – “I would rather be a tiny rhino because I think being a giant hamster, despite how cute hamsters are, would make me look like a giant fur ball. So I’d rather be a tiny rhino because my tinyness would make me appear cute and as a rhino, I’d still have horns and look fierce. So I’ll be a cute, tiny, yet fierce rhino.” 🙂

Job Hunting

I hate job hunting. There are so many ambiguities and what if’s involved. What’s worse is trying to look for something that could be a long term job and possibly a career. It’s hard because you question yourself about if you want to get involved in the organization or role you’re considering applying for and then you wonder if you want your life to go in the direction it may go in if you get involved in that position.

Regardless of all the what if’s and all the things I dislike about job hunting, I, slowly but surely, have to start looking for another job. I will be reaching the 6 month mark in my second term of service in February and that means there isn’t that much more time for me
as an AmeriCorps member. It’s probably better for me anyways to make myself look for jobs right now instead of looking when February comes around. I found a few good job postings today and now I have to customize my resume and write cover letters for each of them. Pretty much all except for one position is “open until filled” so there is no concrete deadline, although I know I should probably submit my application as soon as I can.

It’s always so hard for me to start my cover letters though… It’s always hard for me to start drafting anything period. I guess being a perfectionist, it all has to be perfect before going down on paper, which makes it even harder to start drafting. Time is not on my side either. Joining the InterCorps Council and taking on a second part-time job, in addition to my responsibilities at home have definitely made their demands on my time. Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite because I appear to be organized on the outside but if you were to step into my world, my room, my mind, you’ll find that is far from the truth.

Sigh. Oh life.

“Far and away the best prize that life offers is the chance to work hard at something worth doing.” – Theodore Roosevelt