Hmm… looked through my blog today and it has been a really, really, really long time since I have been on here – at least half a year’s time. Read some old posts I had written and took a little walk down memory lane. When I started this blog, I was in a very emotional, dark, intense time in my life and this was a place for me to pour all those emotions and thoughts out. I am a different person now, in a different place, with a different focus. I will most likely be writing less and less here for a while as I refocus and find my new direction for this space.
This past year has been one of aimless wandering for me you could say… I found myself doing everything and anything I could to learn more, make more, and be more productive. Towards the latter half of 2014, I found myself experiencing some work-life imbalance that I had never encountered before. I am an individual who likes to be busy and have a lot of things going on but do a pretty good job of keeping myself energized and having time for myself. There were days where my energy level and motivation were so low I didn’t want to do anything. There were also a lot of personal things I was thinking about and I think pondering about all those things really made me uncertain about my future and what was next. Then I stopped thinking about it but it was like I was mindlessly going through each moment of each day. I changed my attitude and told myself I needed to get certain things done and to hang in there for the last few weeks that were left in 2014. I just had to reconnect with my optimistic, goal-oriented, carefree self and focus on what I wanted to be and where I wanted to be.
2014 was not an overly exciting year nor was it – thankfully – one filled with various obstacles and challenges. As the perfectionist and overachiever that I am, I guess I had a moment of wondering where I fit in and where I was going, questioning what was I accomplishing. As the last few weeks of December drew near, after an impromptu chat with a good friend, I came to the realization that while I don’t know exactly where I am going, I have come a long way and all the various and – in some ways – random events that have happened these last few years are in their own way laying down a patchwork foundation for the future.
I hope for 2015 to be a year of building and re-enforcing the foundation that 2014 has been. I submitted my application to start a graduate program and hope to start this spring. I will be doing more with my council and building on the work that has already been done in 2014. This will give me more experience with policy and having an impact on community needs. Lastly, I want 2015 to be the year I find my inner child again. In the 25 (soon to be 26 years) of my life, the majority of them have been years where I have had to be responsible, practical, and logical. I hope for this upcoming year to be a year where I have fun, am spontaneous and have many wonderful experiences without thinking too much about responsibility and costs.
Here’s to lessons learned in 2014 and adventures in 2015!