Wakan Tanka, Great Mystery

At Peace

这几天，我的心好乱。我想了很多，烤炉了很多东西，很多事情。想来想去，我就觉得这是最好的结果。不管以后怎么样，就没关系。我可以接受。好奇怪但现在我的心就安心起来了。以后就等着看吧。

Ascension

And if I go

While you’re still here…

Know that I live on

Vibrating to a different measure

Behind a veil you cannot see through.

You will not see me,

so you must have faith,

I wait for the time when we can soar together again

both aware of each other,

Until then, live life to its fullest!

When you need me, just whisper

my name in your heart…

I will be there.

– Colleen Cora Hitchcock

I Carry Your Heart With Me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear, and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling i fear)

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

-e.e. cummings

Ditch The Map

Ramblings

REfocusing. REfreshing. REwinding. REstarting. Onto new things and new adventures. Things happen for a reason. Trust and patience is hard but things cannot be rushed. Unless the moment is right, things cannot happen. Having faith that everything will fall into place (no matter how hard) is all we can do.

我今天觉得好伤心，好伤心，阿。你那么突然进来我的生活里面，现在就那么突然走。 为什么？如果你不留，那你来干什么？你不要留，没有关系，那就说再见把。连一句“再见”你也没给我。我知道我不是你的谁，你也不是我的谁。我还以为，你也跟我一样喜欢对方。我不该这么伤心，我的敢情不该这么乱 但我帮不了我自己。我还是觉得伤心，心情乱。

我是不是做错了什么？是不是我让你生气？我为什么每次都想那么多？你不是跟我说过，如果我们两没什么发生，那就做朋友吧？你现在对我不像一个喜欢别人也不像一个朋友。我要相信你有你的苦衷，你有你自己的理由。但那样对我太难。我已经非常努力才向现在不跟你联络。可能我想要的就是太多。

我该放弃还是在努力？如果你不知道问题在哪里，你怎么知道怎么解决？爱情和男人太太复杂了。x_x

The Alchemist

Just finished reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho and it was definitely worth the read! I share below my favorite passage from the book.

“Even though I complain sometimes,” it said, “it’s because I’m the heart of a person, and people’s hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly.”

“Only Time”

Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time

Who can say why your heart sighs
As your love flies, only time
And who can say why your heart cries
When your love lies, only time

Who can say when the roads meet
That love might be in your heart
And who can say when the day sleeps
If the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart

Who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose
– Only time
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time

Who knows? Only time

– Enya, 2000

Whirlwind

Sometimes two people need to step apart
and make a space between
that each might see the other anew,
in a glance across a room
or silhouetted against the moon.
~Robert Brault

Love. Hurt. Indifference. Intention. Disgust.

You used to be someone who I cared deeply about and whom I poured my heart to. Thus, it only made sense for my world to shatter. I didn’t understand. I tried to understand. Finally, I had to forget, had to stop caring or at least try. Over time, I became indifferent. Your existence in my world or in the world did not matter to me, nor did I care. Struggling with the past. Striving for the future. It is too cruel our worlds had to re-collide. I had every intention of being in control yet couldn’t stop myself from getting sucked in. As if once was not already enough, I found myself caught in old cycles, old habits, old pain. Slowly, I found my grounding again. The earth no longer shakes and trembles below. Today I’ve found that you disgust me. It surprises me yet I can’t help but think you brought it upon yourself. I had started to think I would always be indifferent and could live my life without a thought of you floating through my head.

Where will this go? How will it end?

“Don’t let the darkness of the past cover the brightness of the future.” – Unknown